Archive for June, 2008

12
Jun

getting it out of the system~

Today was the presentation day for one of my course, and the presentation itself worth 30% of the actual exam mark. Well before, talking about the presentation that we did, let’s first learn the team members. Now, I was assigned to Group G. Alongside, 3 other Aussie blokes and my friend, Adrienne. Now, stating the not-so-obvious (actually, pretty obvious), i was the only non-English speaker in the group.

Now that I have mentioned that, I was having trouble understanding the actual case study that we were presenting. The first case study was pretty obvious, but the second one, actually can stand for its own. Meaning that, you can actually do a presentation about the paper by itself, without relating the two. But then, everyone agreed in doing this. And I did send an email saying that, I would agree on anything being decided by the majority.(1st mistake).But still struggling to understand the 2nd case study, I was pretty relieved to see that the group member that was assigned to prepare the slides for this section, had finished the slides. So, I was thinking to myself, that.. "well, at least one of us understand the case study, that wouldn’t be so bad. He can at least teach me what it is about in a much, much, much simpler way.." .(2nd mistake).

But, after looking at the finalized slides, I notice that the second case study was REALLY irrelevant. It didn’t contribute to the flow of the presentation, and there were a lot of terms that needed to be define beforehand. But, knowing that nothing can be done to the slides, or even the flow of the presentation, I asked for help .(3rd mistake). and ask for the group to at least meet up earlier in the morning, and teach each other about their own part. And let everyone be familiar with the ideas, concept or methodology used in both the paper. But to my disappointment, no one arrived early for this purpose.
(just for clarification, everyone was so busy, minding their own business, and taking care of themselves, we never had the chance of meeting up, sitting down, and discuss as a group — BIGGEST MISTAKE)

So, letting fate take its course during the presentation, I presented my part, and handed it over to another team member and so the presentation went according to plan. But, during the Q&A session, I was the lucky person, being solely picked to answer this one question that was from the second case study (in case, you hadn’t noticed, I did mention earlier in this writing, that I was having troubling understanding), and I (OBVIOUSLY) couldn’t answer it. Now, remembering that "HONESTY IS THE BEST POLICY", I told the lecturer (who was the one asking the question) that I was not familiar with the second case study, because the main focus of our presentation was the first paper.(4th mistake). Now, after saying that, he went and ask the other team member. In which, we all appeared to have not understood anything about the second paper. So, we were standing there, and everyone was staring at us. Probably what came through their mind at the time, was.. "why did they decide to do this topic if they have no freaking clue, what it is about". And to all this people, I am really sorry. I had done too many mistakes throughout the preparation and the actual presentation of this project, that I screwed up. Yup, trying to get this out of the system, I SCREW UP. BIG TIME..
(I hope you had fun reading this one, I had fun writing it.. OBVIOUS LIAR)

04
Jun

unhappy.and.unwell

I skipped classes today. Have not been feeling well since yesterday, after donating some 470ml of my A + blood. My hands are still hurting right now. Though it has almost been 24 hours. Probably they pierced the needle at a different angle than before or something. Oh well.. it hurts!

At first, the nurse was hesitant to let me donate since my Haemoglobin (or Hb for short) level were not in the acceptable range. It is supposed to be in between 120-165g/L, and my Hb level was at 118g/L. After forcing blood to ooze out from my finger the second time, she then decided to pierce the needle on my right arm since i decided to donate blood using my left arm. She took about 10ml of blood from my right arm for just about a drop to be used on the machine that tests Hb level. And finally, there it was recording, the new Hb level of 121g/L. So I was finally qualified to donate.

And accompanied with an iron and Haemoglobin booklet I was asked to read, I lay there about 8 minutes and delivered the 470ml blood with an average blood rate of 55ml/sec.

Then, I decided to walk to uni; return a library book, submit my assignment and my practical experience form. After walking for about 10 minutes, going up and down the stairs (if i can recall correctly), I felt the world was spinning slowly. Blood was definitely not coming to my head. I can feel my head jerked a little to the right. And to relieve the pain a bit, I decided to take small steps and get to the nearest chair I can find.

But to my disappointment, the nearest common area in the engineering building was about another 100m walk, down the stairs, and through another four doors. I was pretty sure some kids were looking puzzled at me. A friend whom I accidentally bumped into, came and sit with me said that I was looking rather pale. At that moment, I can swear I was sweating like hell. Though it was only about 12 degrees. After completing all the tasks I set out to do, I decided to go faint at home (haha.. as if).

And here I am, the next day, with a needle mark on both arm, and a prick on one finger, writing, safe and sound on my small bedroom.
(Alhamdulillah. Thank you, Allah.. for bringing me back home, safely..)